whAtEvEr

out on vacation...^_^

2007-03-24T23:57:00.000-07:00

i'll be blogging my last summer vacation at ----> *Summer SAi*
see yah there!!!

"when it hurts, it's real.."

2007-03-03T16:42:00.000-08:00

God, I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed; I am thanking you right now. I am thanking you because I am alive. I am thanking you because I made it through the day's difficulties. I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles. I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better.

pain and sorrow go hand in hand wiht true love... for love is never ideal but real.. so don't even wonder what heartaches are for. .."when it hurts, it's real.."

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sarap sumigaw!!! whaaaah!!! if i willl take all these things seriously siguro matagal na kong baliw!

i see myself in a dimly-lighted room.. sleeping,dreaming, and wandering along.. all alone.

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how come when i feel down i don't run to anyone? talk to anyone? just here? and how come when someone feels not so right i immediately run to him and be his aid, maybe because i know how it feels to carry all the burdens alone. how come i don't change, despite knowing this? i love to comfort people, i also seek for comfort. i wanted to try and seek for someone but i'm afraid to find out that no one is willing to be with me and see me cry.

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hai, enough of the stupid drama.. you know what? mau new discovered talent ako!! ahahaha!!! we ahve a play kasi in our Rizal Course.. our blogk was divided into to groups the other one to perform a play of Noli Me tangere.. and us El filibusterismo.. actaully hassle talaga mga play.. suoper busy na nga eh.kakainin pa ung time for endlless practice and mga mabusising props! but but but!!! i have a new found career!! akalain mong pwede na pala akong painter?! yeah!!!! I'll post a pic of our backdrop soon kapag natapos na..^_^ it was a dark forest and a bamboo house... kahit na sobrang hassle i try to enjoy it para naman di talaga masayang ung time. at least i'm being productive.^_^ thanks to Pam our meastra de pintura!! hehehe..^_^ natutuwa naman ako kasi i've been receiving positive feedbacks...^_^ kea kapag di ako umabot sa finish line ng Accoutnancy punta nalang akong College of Fine artS?! hehe.. actually i love art talaga.. la lang opportunity to practice and develop that so-called hidden talent. kea i wanna thank God dahil napulot ko ung paint bruch at simula nun hindi na binitawan.. hanggang matapos namin ung gubatand now nasa bamboo house na kami... well, it was a group effort di ko naman sinasabi na ako lahat gumawa.. magaling kaming lahat!

dahil din sa exerience na to mas naging close kami ng mga classmate ko.. i don't have a wide range of friends kasi sa class.. si JD lang lagi kong kasama tapos kung sino seatmate ko siya kasuap ko.. ganun lang pero pag naman may freetime i try to roam around and join other groups pero seldom ko ginagawa un.. di kasi ako ung tipong tao na nagsstart ng conversations.. kasi nga i seek for affirmatioin.. pano kung di sila interested? ouch naman un.. hai.. o diba kahit papano.. may magandang nanyari sakin this week?

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eh teka.. may masasabi ako bout dito... bakti ba kapag sobrang saya mo na... may something parin nanagpapalungkot sayo? well, i guess ganun talaga. di pedeng sobrang saya...nakakalason..

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wow!!! ganda nitong video na to!!! slamat sa nagbigay sakin... Adonis from friendster... i feel slightly good na tuloy..^_^ galing talaga ni GOD!

malambot na kama... magaspang na bedsheet

2007-02-27T03:36:00.000-08:00

kung kelan kala mo bumubuti na buhay... di pala... ako lang yun pinipilit ko lang isipin na nagiging ok na lahat.. pati ba naman sarili ko kailangan kong lokohin?

try to be what you ought to be

2007-02-02T02:03:00.000-08:00

Hay. I don’t feel bad.. but I think I’m suppose to feel bad not just plain bad… dreadful. Haha. When it comes to emotions I do really try to cover-up it’s not that I’m pretending but it’s just that I don’t wanna feel that way.

I can’t open my e-mail. I’m supposed to send a quiz for my calculus. I can’t even upload the file from my classmate’s e-mail. Whaaah!! Yahoo!! You got my nerves!! Ah yes, now I know I’m up in arms! I can’t even post an entry on my blog! (I have to save this in word then just upload it later)

Uhm, well my first week in 2007 was fine. No, clouds above.. the sun shines brighter and the moon also. It’s just clear, without blemishes. Except for this night (Jan. 6-7, 2007) .

A lot of thoughts have been blocked. Well, for the benefit of everyone, maybe it’s not always for me. Things are not solely all about me, taking in consideration other people’s feelings is really of great consequence.

Self-control vs. self indulgence.. Restraint of thoughts for the good of everyone.. something that I have mastered over the years. At times it just crosses the line.. when I got so puzzled I just take in consideration other people.. I always look for affirmation from other people. If we don’t come to an agreement, I just take their judgment as something better than mine. Or when it comes to my own emotions I try to conceal all the negative feelings I have especially when I’m around my friends because I know they have their own rants that they can’t handle. I try to help them uplift themselves and how can I lend a hand if in my part I’m down and also bashed out? Their troubles and worries are bigger than mine. I can still deal with my own concerns well. Like now that my e-mail’s not working I try to keep myself cool. (very optimistic ) I don’t know why.. I just wanted things to look good. Even if it’s Superficial.

Oftentimes I realize I’m becoming too self-less and then the irony of this is becoming a brat. Well, let’s replace becoming to being because I ‘m already a brat. It’s the two extremes. When I get too self-less and then realize that I don’t have anything left for myself I tend to be selfish. (I want this and that done this way and that, follow my initiative because I have better ideas than you are and I know this can make you feel much better.)

Another new year’s resolution: be more assertive… less submissive and much less aggressive!! Being optimistic is good but being excessively optimistic can be really a malady.

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2007-01-25T22:08:00.000-08:00

tapos na prelims k0!! yeah!!! and ayaw ko ng magkwento kung ano man nanayari.. kasi.... hai.. para akong nagpapakamatay araw-araw... ngayon naman.. chill muna.. hai. i deserve this!!!!! as in sobra!!!
ok, yesterday. nanood kami ni JD ng agent x44... hmm... nakakatawa naman.. ganun talaga siguro kapag depress lahat ng jokes pinapatualan mo? get ba?! ayun lang.. nararamdaman ko ngayon... hmmm... pagod.. miss ko na si joshua.. kahit na araw-araw ko siya nakikita... kasi eh.. basta...

kanina kasama ko siya nag-lunch.. nakakatuwa may award siyagaling sa mga classmate niya.. "alagang downy" ^_^ kala ko dahil kasi mabango siya? hahaha.. di pala kasi daw maalaga siya sa girlfriend niya.. hehe nakakatuwa naman..^_^ un lang.. antay ko siya may training kasi siya eh kea dito ako lib.. actually maya pang 6 ang out niya.. pero dahil super miss ko na siya.. hehe.. alagang downy din gf nia eh.. nye.. corny...

yeah! yeah! new yeah!

2007-01-02T00:52:00.000-08:00

Pasukan na bukas. Ready naba ko? Ano sai? Ready na? (hindi pa…)

May quiz ako sa social bukas, nakapag-aral na ko pero may nakalimutan ako konti. ^_^ and now.. Tinatamad akong magreview. Natry ko din mag-aral sa accounting pero hindi ko maget eh. Kea un di ko na tinuloy? (loser na quitter pa)

Feeling bad ako kasi hindi pa ko nakakapagconfess… so unpure…=c tapos tingin ko nagiging pessimist na ko.. grabe di pede to!!! Dapat palaging + + + + + + + + + + + +…

New year’s resolution.. walang salita.. gawa lang!!! gumawa ako ng shoebox coinbank!!! Yeah!! At nilagyan ko na siya ng laman.. simula ngayon magiging super thrifty na ko!! Except sa pagkain ah? Gusto kong tumaba ng konti eh..^_^ mas magiging neat and tidy na ko sa rum ko kaya naman binabalik ko na ng maayos ung mga gamit ko.. and mas magiging studious na ko. (eto dapat talga ginagawa eh) siguro kailngan ko narin maging less dramatic? And tingin ko magandang solution dun hindi na dapat ako magholdback ng feelings. Kung ano nararamdaman ko dapat sabihin ko na agad. Kailangan kong umunlad this year!!! Di lang sa material things pati narin spiritually….^_^ starting ~~today~~ ay tomorrow nalang? Hehe basta!!! Go na to.. NEW YEAR NEW ME!!!

gusto ko ng magpagupit ngayon pero kasi mag-aaral daw si Joshua kea next time nalang after prelims siguro. Bibili ako ng hot oit and chocolate chips… mamaya at green tea!! Para naman feel good mag-aral. ^_^

happy me!!!! Happy-happy… bubbles….. lalalalalala….

post new year drama

2007-01-01T23:35:00.000-08:00

Pagkatapos ng pinkamasayang season ever time na ulit para mag drama.. alam ko di appropriate madrama ngayon.. pero.. hello!!! Di ko na kaya eh!! Hmm..

Dec. 20, last paskuhan I thougt I was ok pero hindi pala..

kasi galling ako sa bahay ng best friend ko ang he was about to leave na.. when we where there sa haus sobrang saya.. para kaming mga bangag sa alcohol.. kasi eh.. dahil siguro sa eight o’ clock at tang orange juice..^_^ ksama ko nga pala sila rich, cathy , andro and b-anne.. during lunch sobrang daldal naming.. tapost awa ng tawa.. hai.. un na pinakamasayang lunch.. tapos un nga narealize naming baka nalasing kami dahil sa orange juice… haha…silly.. then kinukwneto nila kung anu-ano pinaggagawa ni Argie nun first time niya malasing.. sobrang nakakatawa! hai..( nag lasing na siya.. ako na lang ata hindi umiinom sa barkada namin? ) gusto ko sana kausapin si argie nun andaming opportunity para kausapin siya pero kapag nakikita ko siyang nakangiti parang ayaw ko na.. I tried to hold back all the emotions.. ayaw kong Makita niya kong malungkot.. although alam kong alam niya na ganun talaga nararamdaman ng mga tao sa paligid niya. Kaag napapatingin ako sa kanya naiiyak ako.. tapos kapag kausap ko siya sobrang dami kong jokes.. =c gusto nila akong isama sa airport.. gusto ko din sana kaso di ko lam manyayari kung makakaya ko ba? Siguro mejo nagging selfish ako nun.. kasi inisip ko na baka di mo makaya Makita siya na umalis.. someone who has been with me almost all my life.. mas masakit un kaysa iwan ka ng boyfriend mo noh! Well, siguro hindi nga ganun kagrabe dahil makakapag-usap pa naman kami.. pero kasi diba ung presence ng isang tao ang mas importante. May chocolate chips sila dun nakalasgay sa bowl nun una matigas pa siya ko kinakamay lang naming.. there was a time na hindi ko napansin hawak ko na pala ung bowl and lampas kalahati na nakakain ko? Tapos nun mejo natutunaw na siya kumuha ako ng spoon and tuloy lang sa kain.. nakakatawa nga eh.. buti nalang alang nakapansin except for the moment na nakita na nilang ginagamitan ko na siya ng kutsara… siguro nagawa di dahil adik ako sa chocolate (well, siguro mejo un nadin) siguro dahil sa nattense ako.. di ko lam kung san ko ilalagay ung gma emotions na ayaw kong ilabas.. tapos aun aalis na siya.. makikipagkita ako kay joshua kasi gna paskuhan sa UST. Gusto ko siya akapin, lunurin sa halik sabihing mahal na mahal ko siya pero wala.. binulong ko nalang sa hangin kasi naluluha na ko. Sumakay kami sa fx. Magkatabi kami sa harapan. Nakangiti siya. Sobrang gwapo..^_^ di ko malilimutan ung mga malalim na dimples niya at ang killer smile.. at ang super kulit personality.. wala na kong kadikit palagi.. bakit kasi kailangan mo pang umalis!! Hanggang ngayon di parin nagssink–in sakin na nandun ka na.

nasa bus na kami ni Joshua. May sunog malapit sa may ultramega. Natakot ako kasi tumuigil pa ung bus para maki-usisa. Nag-panic si Joshua gusto niya bumaba. Eh hello kapag bumaba kami at sumabog un post ng kuryente ano magiging bbq kami dun. Kalmado lang ako sa mga sitwasyon na ganun sibnasabi ko sa sarili ko si God na bahala samin. And thank God wala namang nanyaring masama samin.. nakarating kami ng UST ng maayos.

Paskuhan. Dapat masaya.. pagdating naming dun nakita ko si joyce ung classmate namin nun elementary. Tapos aun hi-hello. sinabi kko na umalis na si argie.. blah-blah-blah. Madami nga palang devil headbands… hai.. isa pang nagpasama ng gabi ko.. I’m feeling like hell na nga tapos parang nasa hell nga ako!! Late na ko sa meeting namin ng mga gwapings.. pagdating ko dun heaven na ulit.. masaya..^_^ tapos nagtext si argie bout sa roaming niya.. nagulo nanaman mundo ko.. tapos ok na.. ayan.. party na ulit.. hanap kami ng kainan… kumain.. tapos nagtext si argie.. boom! Sabog nanaman. Malunkgot!!! Sobra!!! Tumawag ako sa kanya.. nakakainis ung globe hirap tumawag.. walang hanggang iyak. Kasama ko si Joshua sa may terrace sa may bingkays. Umiiyak ako.. tapos may conflict pa dun sa mga UST friends ko..nu ba yan.. hai.. ako na yata pinakmaraming iniisip na prob nung gabi nay un. Tapos pagkatapos kumain balik sa school. Masyadong natuwa si josh kasi nakita ni ung urbandub. Nahiwalay ako sa mga friends ko.. di na kami nagkita ulit. Nakakainis sobra! Pero it doesn’t show kasi ayaw ko na ng drama nung time na un.. sumama nalang kami sa mga friends ni josh. Masaya sila. Hindi ako nagsasalita. Hawak ko lang phone ko.. hinahanap ko ung mga friends ko pero hindi nga kami nagkita. Nakakainis. Tapos umuwi na kami. Si Jd dapat sabay siya pero kasi undecided siya so nauna na kami. Walang bus sa may buendia di namin alam kung saan pupunta. Nagtry kami mag-ayala.. saibang way siya dumaan we were so worried na baka maligaw kami. Kinakabahan ako pero it doesn’t show. Kasi nga ayaw ko na ng drama. Obvious na sobrang worried na si josh syempre kasi late na. din a lang ako nagsasalita.. I’m trying to keep myself calm. Tapos nakababa din kami sa dapat babaan. Nakasakay ng bus pauwi. Dapt matutulog si Josh sa bahay kaso galit na galit na daw si dadi kaya sabi ko wag na lang. ayun. Nakauwi din. Umaga na nun. Sobrang habang araw.. malungkot.

I tried to retire all these feelings.. gusto ko siyang isabay sa pagputok ng mga fireworks last celeb ng new year pero hindi eh. Naiwan siya ditto sakin. Kaya eto na. ayaw ko na sayo!

Pero to be fair gusto ko din sana sabihin ung mga magandang nanyari that day.

Ung masayang tawanan sa bahay ni argie. Dumating din ung ibang courage. Mga memories na binalik. Ung chocolate chips. Nagkabati sandali si pat and lyn. Nakita ko ung mga friends ko na sobrang tagal ko na di nakakasama. May ginawa ako kay jd siguro nga nakakaawa siya nun time na un.. pero kasi masaya na siya eh. Ayaw ko ng mawala ung ngiti sa mukha niya. Natuto akong tumayo sa sarili kong paa. Di siguro ganun katagal. Pero atleast I’ve made some few steps. Naging matapang ako for a while. Nakapagpigil ako ng luha. Kasama ko si Joshua. Di niya ko pinabayaan. Nafeel ko na he cares talaga. Even if di niya un ineexpress in words. Nalaman kong maraming nagmamahal sakin. Sobrang concerned din ung mga UST friends ko. Nakasama na ni argie ung mom niya. Nakauwi kami ng safe. Mahal ako ni God.

happy new year!!!

2006-12-31T02:13:00.000-08:00

malapit na New Year... hours nalng.. hmmm well, i guess it's time to list all the good things that happened to me...

I passed the Accountancy qualifying exam.^_^ *ito ang major thing na nagdikta ng kinabukasan ko.*
I passed my 1st sem! *hopefully i will pass my 2nd one..*
Josh and I went to EK
we went to batangas too...^_^
happiest summer ever!!
swimming party!!
new classmates..
made friends with KC!!^_^
made friends with JD!!^_^
became a PAXi^_^
Pax CHorale
Cerealicious.krispy krepe.tapsilog.1st sisig.
fallen out of love.. and then managed to get up and love again!! yeah!
things got a lot better when Josh came^_^
UST won the UAAP season ^_^(basketball)
Five peat in the CHeering Competition..
Josh and i watched UAAP together..
I turned 18 this year!!! i had a great party!!
my family is in good health...
i've felt that God really loves me!!

well, there may be a lot of things that i have forgotten, but hey! at least i know i'm super blessed!!!

sana tayong lahat ay maging ligtas ngayong gabi.. salubungin ang taon ng tama--maglagay ng pera sa bulsa para forever rich ka!!^_^

This year i have learned to appreciate everything.. kahit na ung mga disappointments.. kasi it had helped me to grow.. tingin ko may malaking improvement sa maturity level ko..^_^

mejo inis nga ko naun eh.. tapos eto ala pang makausap.. kea blog-blog una.. di kasi nagpaparamdam boyfriend ko.. hhmmm wat kea nanyari dun?

* well,, HAPPY NEW YEAR sa ating lahat!!! BOOOM!!!!^_^

yuletide cheers!!!

2006-12-25T00:10:00.000-08:00

This was the most dramatic Christmas I ever had in my entire life..^_^ hai.. parents, when they grow old they begin to be overly unreasonable and close minded… let’s just say a bit stubborn in their own way.. it’s really funny though when everything’s over and done you’ll just realize… how stupid you are.. well, me too.. I acted stupid.. or maybe just a bit dim-witted.. hahaha!! (kahit na stupid parin) no need to spill all the beans because I acted so childish last night hehe.. things got a bit tangled but it’s ok now..

Uhmm.. what can I say?! I have nothing left to say? Hehe.. nah.. non-sense.. it’s Christmas!! It’s Jesus’ birthday! Wooohooo!! Let’s partey!!!

Merry Christmas everyone!!! May God bless you and your family… yuletide cheers!!!

^_^.,v

Oh by the way.. I got a lot of presents this Christmas..^_^ my mom gave me a wallet from manel’s the pink one that I really like..^_^ hehe then my classmate Cristine gave me a cute chopstick hair accessory, pouch bag, hanging churva, ponytail, and cookies.. (funny combination), Rea gave me a cute furry bunny ballpen, Aubee gave me strawberry shortcake stickers and a kiss^_^ my commerce friends gave me sweet greetings, hugs and kisses,^_^ my courage friends gave me an outstanding performance of ajing2x a-jingle bells…..^_^ (on a high octave) and sweet and thoughtful greetings too.. my best friend Argie gave me a very fresh call from Hayward, California.. aww… how I missed you!!! And then my Babe gave me a big pillow and a stuffed flower with TLC… cuteness….^_^
And then God gave us his only son.. Jesus Christ.. the greatest gift ever..^_^

Happy-happy!!!

just here waiting...

2006-12-13T20:32:00.001-08:00

given that my boyfriend was a total geek.. turning to be an absolute one, i'm here with him at the library... he's playing God tower... a super geeky game... hai.. feeling loser naman ako dito sa tabi niya kasi i don't know anything bout that... and duh? i'm not interested.. hai... i miss him so much.. the usual guy he was with me before that org came... he became so engrossed with that org he didn't even notice that things are changing around us.. i do understand him.. he loves it when he excels.. but how about me? does he ever thought/felt that he had me? i'm starting to feel worthless.. exagg to say but that's exactly how i feel. how could a guy be overly sweet and snap an org came and then he loves it. i know i'm something to him more than that org. but i think he just gets so excited when they meet.. hai.. i miss you.. even though we see each other everyday.. but it seem to me that it just serves as a sign that you exist and i exist we're both alive and we have something special between us. no need for words to be said.. just the look in the eyes.. it's more than enough.. but it doesn't mean that if something was enough you'll never add or change.. i hope you can notice how things change around us.. don't be so far away... meet me half way.. i don't want disappointments..=c still.. i love you so much...

love..the happiest feeling ever!!!!^_^

2006-12-12T20:28:00.000-08:00

- Tree, leaf and wind -

I have read this entry and suddenly my hands pressed harder on the table and on the mouse.. My heart throb harder… hai… love…. Love. love.. it moves you anywhere… up, down, in circles… you can tumble down for so many times over.. manage to get up and then love again… it’s pretty addicting… but as it says don’t settle with the one who’s available at the moment, wait for your true love, life is too short to waste on just someone… and then after I have read that.. I stopped.. Think for a while.. Am I just wasting time or am I here to love him forever??? well, every time I start a relationship I see it as a long time commitment.. It’s only them who lose sight of my worth then unconsciously making me feel worthless. Guys… whatever the consequences may be I will never stop loving… my heart may be brutally abused, bruised, thrown, be pulverized, shed too much blood… it won’t stop me… loving is a happy feeling…^_^ it’s not suppose to be seen as a burden even though sometimes it really is a big pain in the ass! It’s the most wonderful feeling anyone could ever feel!! I may have gotten my heart bashed countless times… but I will love again!!! Stand up every time you tumble down…

pouring everything OUT!!!!

2006-12-11T02:25:00.000-08:00

Wow! It’s been a while since I’ve been here?! Seems like a century ago? well, it's not that i haven't been in front of the computer, I was always burning time in front of the computer for the past days doing the usual stuffs... well, usual for me is different now.. Doing research, assignments, projects and a whole lot school stuff...=c sad to say my life has been overly boring.... hehehe... just studying... I’ve almost lost my social life!! Well, except for constantly being with my amorous? Boyfriend..^_^ and of course JD.. hehe the best buddy in class… hmm… nu nga ba nanyari sakin?

Last week I was super sick!! Nag ka trangkaso ako.. and I wasn’t able to take my quiz in Rizal course.. hai… I was so bitter for that!!!! I almost memorized the book by heart!! I studied even if I’m sick!! My head aches badly, as if there’s an on going construction inside but I still managed to know who’s Francisco Lezcano, Tomas de Comyn and John foreman!!! Grrr…. Those insignificant people!! General Rafael Izquierdo, the boastful and ruthless governor general who executed the Gomburza in 1872! Admiral Jose Malcampo, who’s a Moro fighter but a weak administrator! General Fernando Primo de Rivera who’s a corrupt official who enriched himself by receiving bribes from gambling casinos in Manila which he made legal to operate! General Valeriano Weyler, who’s receiving bribes and gifts for her wife from Chinese who evaded the anti-Chinese law! A poor man who became a millionaire! He was scornfully called tyrant by the Calamba tenants and temptously called the butcher by the Cubans! General Camilo de Polavieja who’s and able militarist but a cruel administrator… he’s the one who’s responsible for the execution of Rizal… Juan de la Cruz! Ventura de los Reyes!!! Argh!!! Ask me anything!!! I know the answer!!! Ayan.. I got so disappointed kasi I expected tooo much…=c I wanted to perfect my quiz kasi…=c well… enough of that!

It was my accounting departmental exam earlier this day.. hmm… what can I say? The usual it’s a bit complex or is it just the aircon who made it more difficult??(sinisi nalang sa aircon…^_^) it was freezing cold inside kasi.. hindi papasa naman ako dun..^_^ ayan gusto ko sa sarili ko eh.. mataas level ng confidence…^_^ It was also my quiz in BA… ha! Hahaha… it was easy!!! Sus! BA lang eh?! ^_^

Well for the rest of the days I was just studying…. Studying… and more…

oooopS!!! I almost forgot!! We watched Happy Feet!!! With Josh and Argie- my best friend!! Hahahaha!!! Winner!!! The penguins were so cute!!!^_^ the story was the usual thing… he doesn’t belong because he’s different and then at the end he did a heroic thing and then he was the star!!!^_^ well, the story may not be that exciting or whatever… but the characters were so cute you can just look at them and on how they act even without focusing on the movie they were just sooooo CUTE!!!^_^ how many times did I say they’re overly cute?!^_^ it’s really a must see movie…

loneliness ate me last-last week… I felt empty and all… I don’t even have a clue why.. and then I wasn’t able to watch Happy Feet because of the Super typhoon Reming… who didn’t pass even MANILA!! Argh! Joshua kasi eh! Ahmf!! Hehe peace…(^^,),v well, it’s a good thing naman na Reming didn’t pass by Manila.. pero wawa naman ung mga taga Bicol and other provinces that were devastated… they were really left with nothing…=c aww…

To wrap up this long story… life may be full of unacceptable things but it can still be perfect it’s just a matter of perspective…^_^

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2006-11-11T19:37:00.000-08:00

My first week in 2nd sem is already over and done. Hmm… there are no lessons yet coz it’s our college week. Last Nov. 8 (destiny’s 18th birthday) a grand mass was held at the Medicine auditorium and Pax Romana chorale was tasked to sing for the mass.. hai… being short of practice.. We sucked!! Haha.. Well, not really just a bit..^_^ we could have done better!!! Mas ok pa ung kanta naman every first Friday sa may amv-mph… niweiz the best part of it was staying at the back stage!!! Suddently a monster came in?! hahahaha!!! Ma’am Inuturan and told us that they can hear us from inside the auditorium… so then, off we go… we didn’t attend the talk of former sec. Boncodin (the woman with highlights.. haha).
There are no classes for the rest of the week. The most inspiring and best thing that happened to me this week isattending the lecture of Washington Sycip… one of the Accountancy Idols!! Words aren’t really enough for me to describe I how I admire him..^_^ and I will be like him when I grow up!! Hehehe…

i'm really sorry...

2006-11-06T02:05:00.000-08:00

Sorry, sobrang sorry talaga.. hai.. I just can’t get over it. I’m such a brat. Di ko tuloy alam kung pano kita kakausapin, nahihiya ako sayo. Ginagawa mo lahat ng bagay para sakin tapos eto ako pinasasakit ang ulo mo. Sobrang hiyang-hiya na ko sayo.. sobrang bait mo kasi. You don’t deserve to be treated like this. Hai. Sorry, sorry, sorry…

=c

2006-11-06T00:22:00.000-08:00

I thought my sem will start right but then I was wrong.. nothing seems to go the right way..=c first thing in the morning I was so sluggish to wake up.. and then before I leave the house my body butter was missing.. I came late in school because of the heavy traffic, I felt really drowsy in the bus and someone throw up inside the bus and it stinks like hell. And then when I got there I lose my balance and slipped twice!! And then manong guard was like laughing to death.. I was laughing at myself too.. But I admit it was pretty embarrassing. I asked josh if he can wait for me and then he started complaining about the essay contest he is joining and i asked him if he can do that while he’s waiting for me.. and then he continued complaining. (I know he can’t do that in a flash.) My friends and I were suppose to throw a surprise for Racell because it’s her birthday yesterday, rea and I bought a cake and the surprise will be at 12 noon because it’s their break. Unfortunately my accounting prof came to discuss the whole coverage of our accounting course! Hai the hell I care for those things… is that the best thing to do in your first day of meeting?! On the first two minutes that she’s standing in front of us I have hate her already!!!! Arghh… And I’m not willing to spend my whole sem with her specially knowing that this course is the most thorny one!! Hai… I guess I just have to study a lot harder this time. Anyways because of that prof I was not able to join the surpsrise for Racell!!! Arghh!! I was at the phone and I can hear them singing happy birthday… hai.. How I wanted to sing..=c I really wanted cut class and not attend my last period because Josh is waiting for me and I don’t like the way my day is going. I saw him talking with Ico I thought he still wanted to stay.. but then when I approached him outside I saw his gloomy disappointed face I already knew what’s happening.. hai… I really feel sorry because I asked him to wait for me even though I know that he still got a lot of things to do.. =c he explained and I said sorry.. He said he’s not mad at me but he doesn’t like what was happening.. hai… I hate myself.. I have been a bratty again. Nasunod nga gusto ko, panget naman epekto sa ibang tao. I have been super selfish!!! Hai… when will I learn my lesson? I don’t know how to start a conversation with josh because I was really ashamed on how I acted. Maybe I’ll just go to school earlier tomorrow so that we can talk. Hai… I hope that the rest of the day won’t go with the flow... It was really a mess!whatever!!!

*I hope there’ll be a better tomorrow..

yah..yah..

2006-10-23T00:09:00.000-07:00

This is to prepare myself for the upcoming semester which is expected to be dreadful. For now I'm enjoying my sembreak and happily blogging about my everyday life at sembreak diaries.

say whatever!!

2006-10-22T21:57:00.000-07:00

whatever!!! I'm ok with all the alternatives.. whatever the consequences may be... it's all good...